Let me whisper you my story.

SOOOOOO I came to Victoria last Thursday with much effort. Its turning out exactly as I thought it would. Mum just had a huge ass screaming fit at me because she said that people who do karate have to do pushups on their knuckles, and I told her that they didn’t HAVE to do it, they just had the ability to do it. I said it politely in what I thought was general conversation. Apparently I was wrong, I was actually opposing her, and she apparently can’t say anything without me telling her that she’s wrong, and that I should go get fucked because I have absolutely no respect for her and need to grow up and understand that I’m not always right. She then went and abused my Dad and brother.. My brother because he wouldn’t give her more Xanax (the drug that made her this way in the first place) and my Dad because he tried to make her feel better, and in doing so apparently it meant he never does anything except for defend me.. OHWELLLLL. Can’t really get upset about what you knew was coming, right? Besides, up until now (apart from a few minor issues that were kept under control.. Just) it’s been good. Been so good seeing my brother and Dad :). & bits and peices of Mum..

Just kind of sucks ‘cus apparently I’m a fail @ life girlfriend and I can’t talk to my boyfriend about it -.——————————————- .

Come and go now as you please
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing
And you just sing..

And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you’re not around

Is this the way you want it?
Is this the way it has to be?
Sitting here beside you
With my heart’s lost in New Orleans
Dreams come clever
Hearts now severed
Difference of forever
And I am lost there

Well I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you’re not around 
And I finally found that life goes on without you
And my world still turns when you’re not around 
And I finally find that all..

Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing 
Your actions write the melodies
To the songs that we sing 
And you just sing along out loud, yeah.

Soundwave 2012.

So fucking far away. Psyched but. Summadayze is like 2 days away and I’m still tossing up. HA. Fail.

Standin’ on your mama’s porch,
You told me it would last forever.
Oh the way you held my hand,
I knew that it was now or never.
Those were the best days of my life.

Goodbye 2011.

2012, I’m going to kick your ass.

Merry Christmas Tumblr.

Merry Christmas? I think not. Parents never bare a good hand in Christmas, even if they are on the other side of the country. Something always goes wrong, but I’ve come to expect it now.

All in all, could’ve been worse. Steve was great, listened to me cry, hugged me ‘til I stopped, tried everything he possibly could to make me happy again. It’s nice to know he’s there when I fall.. or in this case, get repeatedly smashed to the ground :P. (Might be a bit of mild exaduration there.) But yeah, I did feel pretty shit last night, and the friends trying to console me seemed to just make it worse by letting me know they were there for me. You know that feeling when you don’t want to have people trying to make you feel better? You just want to be angry, but because you know you have people that care about you, for some reason it just makes you sad? Anyway, Steve fixed everything, like he always does.

I think I’ve grown up a lot in the last year, matured a lot. Mind you, I also thought that I’d grown up last year after living alone for a year and a half. But I’ve realized how immature I used to be about Steve and my relationship. Relationships never stay in that perfect “honeymoon period”. But that’s okay, because that’s part of moving on. I’m happy now. And I’m happy that after almost two years, he still makes me happy :).

Presents!!

The presents my friends got me made me feel a lot better as well. Not because I was all “Ooo, yay. Stuff!” Because the ones closest got me, got me meaningful stuff that resembled our relationship.

Bec got me quite a few things. She got me a book called “The Pig of Happiness”, which may just be the most amazing book ever. She also got me a cassette notepad, a beautiful necklace, and the Bento Bestiary. Very us :), especially because she remembers all the little things that I liked in a shop :)!!

Jillian, among other things, got me frog salt and pepper shakers. Salt and pepper shakers? Convenient I guess.. But it’s the frog that’s symbolic!! A couple of years ago we were in the lunch room at work and I was talking about how I wanted a frog necklace. So for my 18th she got/made me(once again, among other things) a frog necklace! She got this awesome necklace and put a scrap booking frog on there :P. And it continued.. When I came back from Melbourne I got her a jeweled frog jewellery case, and painted her a frog for her birthday (which I also have.. Because after I painted it for her I couldn’t let it go.. So I painted another identical one). And then comes the frog salt and pepper shakers :)!! She also got me alcoholic chocolate :P.

Carrie & Drew got me stuff from the body shop, which is pretty much my favourite shop ever. But more importantly, Carrie got me the Smurfs season 1 & 2 on DVD :). Carrie and I saw the Smurf movie in 3D in cinema not long ago. And it was epic. Enough said?

I opened all of the above in front of Steves family.. I think they were a bit confused, and now think I’m weird.

Tara got me a Thomas Sabo charm bracelet :)))). Taras my best friend. The bracelets important, because she has one. It’s her “most important material possession”. It means a lot that she got me one as well ^_^.

Michael got me a $50 gift card :P.

Karen got me a peacock necklace. Mild confusion, but I appreciate it :P!

Brother got me a dust buster.. Because I asked for it.. He didn’t think I was serious when I told him that’s what I wanted. Obviously getting old.

Stevens Mum got me a four pack of different Britney Spears perfume.. Which is some of the most awesome perfume ever.

Steve Dad gave me money and cadbury favorites :P. I wasn’t expecting anything and kind of felt bad for taking it.. 

Steves Grandma even got me cadbury favorites!! Considering I only met her a month or two ago, this made me feel special :D.

I like that they thought of me though.. It made me feel really accepted ^_^.

Stevennnnnnnnnnnn.

Now he’s a bit silly, because he’s perfect, but he spent lots on me. Which is always silly!

He got me a play station 3. Another controller. A HDMI cable. Assassins creed brotherhood. Sonic & Sega All-Stars Racing. ANDDDDDDDDDDD Little Big Planet 2 :DDD. I haven’t played the second one, but the first one was awesome as :) and he knows I love it. We’re off to get a new monitor tomorrow, just for my play station ^_^.

ANDDDDDDDDDDDDDD he took me to see the pretty Christmas lights :). I love him :))).

Steven had kind of a bad day though :(. He got new stuffs for his computer but when he put it in it didn’t work.. And he had to re-install windows which means he lost everything.. Which blows.. Because he deserves so much better :(. But I think he’s okay now though.. I hope.

Stevens awesome. And thoughtful. And perfect. And Amazing. And I’m so glad he’s mine.

/End sappy boyfriend rant that’s gone on since my previous blog.

As the winter winds litter London with lonely hearts,
Oh the warmth in your eyes swept me into your arms.
Was it love or fear of the cold that led us through the night?
For every kiss your beauty trumped my doubt.

And my head told my heart
“Let love grow.”
But my heart told my head
“This time no,
This time no.”

We’ll be washed and buried one day my girl,
And the time we were given will be left for the world.
The flesh that lived and loved will be eaten by plague,
So let the memories be good for those who stay.

Most amazing boyfriend ever.

No matter what, I’ll always know that he’s there for me. He makes me happy and he seriously cares about me. No matter what I know I’ll always love him, and that we’ll always be okay. We may fight/argue/bicker/discuss/disagree/whatever else you want to call it. But that’s us, we don’t scream at each other, we don’t hit each other and we do the best that we can to not only try not to hurt each other, but to make each other happy. We have the perfect relationship ^_^.

You know it’s right when one hug can make all of the bad things go away.